I’ve been trying, recently, to write a transfer essay for a college I dropped out of three years ago. Yeah, you probably read that sentence right. It doesn’t really make much sense.

The only thing I have ever really wanted a degree in is English. In May, I’ll have a degree…in Business. I’ll be in debt, and I’ll have a degree that is both useless to me, and completely, depressingly unwanted. Since accidentally graduating high school a semester early, I’ve told myself I wouldn’t settle – but. This Business degree?

Um. Settling. And for awhile, I was okay with it. I’d let myself be convinced that I’d wasted enough money – and enough time (I mean, I’ve been in college almost five years now; that’s disgusting).

I tried this college once, and like I said – dropped out. And it’s not cheap. It’s even on the “wow, that’s a little expensive” side of not cheap. But it’s what I want. I’m just nervous because how many times are they going to let the same person in based on their fluke-y ACT scores (because there is no way I scored that high based on legitimate knowledge) instead of mediocre transcripts?

And how am I supposed to write a two page transfer essay when all I can think of to say is, “I’ve been in college for five years and would like something to be proud of,” and “I promise I am not as dumb as I seem”?