What scares me a lot about myself is that more than once I have been told I seem like an angry person. This bothers me because that isn’t something I want to portray; I do not feel angry enough for that to be showing to someone who is around me: but there it is, apparently.
I am happy about almost everything, but when I am angry, I am angry and I hold onto it. I do not like to direct my anger at the source of it. Instead I keep it for myself, and it’s obvious that’s detrimental. Therapy, though it hasn’t taught me how to properly deal with it, has at least taught me that much.
I’ve been disappointed lately; frustrated by people I had faith in and hopes for. That disappointment became anger recently, and I think I am ready to let it go. There is nothing I can do.
What are you holding onto?
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There once a time of my life that I was always mad with almost about everything. Then after a changing phase I realized that we cannot control everything. It is up to us whether we want to stay and let this anger destroy our focus or we can just keep a cool head and appreciate the people and other blessings that we have.
By the way it’ll be nice to voice out your anger, or use sports like boxing to unload some negative feelings.
Posted 17 Mar 2010 at 12:42 am ¶I hold onto shattered dreams for far longer than necessary. Like things I wish I could have done or people I wish I could have known better. It’s a horribly depressing habit and makes me sad and eventually angry, like you. People say I have an attitude, but really I’m just disappointed in them for not living up to my dreams of them, if that makes sense? So you and I are basically in the same boat… let’s go to therapy together or something.
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